Notes
The past few years have been pretty wildly transformative for me (understatement) and every time I think it might slow down it seems to accelerate instead. As I look back, I realize that I’ve attracted a lot of ambiguous and ambivalent situations, because I’ve been ambiguous and ambivalent about myself. And across a bunch of dimensions that has been standing in the way of fully realizing myself and my gifts in the world, it’s not of service to those around me either. I need my energy to go to directness and real exchange. If people want to meet me in real ways, that is warmly welcomed and sounds like much fun; if not, that’s ok too and doesn’t in any way diminish my immense respect and gratitude for them. But it’s one or the other, real or not. It’s too painful to be a perpetual ghost, to be part of ambiguous situations without any direct, clear communication. I can’t do that, and more importantly, I can’t treat myself that way any more. Clarity and healthy boundaries are the spiritual foundation of good relationships, and healing in themselves, especially when we encounter them in warm hearts. All of my actions need to be congruent with those values, not just some of them. And I need to evolve to a higher standard, to be the woman I know I’m capable of becoming. Well, that’s enough with the seriousness. I have a bunch of dance floors to tear up, and I better get back to it.